Hopeless Me

Sheer despair is what I sit here in
As fleeting thoughts ravage my mind
Nothing can mend a soul torn apart
And there's only pain but no peace to find.
I can't rest, I can't sleep and I can't dream
And I don't even see light, as if I were blind
My despondent spirit torments my very being
Is God so feculent but still considered kind

Depression wraps its entrails like a blanket of hellfire
As I search for a shadow of hope to get out this quagmire
Just a shadow and just a hope is what I keep seeking
To lift this discouraged tormented soul and my being
And find a world of safety, love, peace and serenity
Where my soul will no longer languish in morbidity.
I keep thriving with all remaining strength and positivity
Fighting my unrest and a seemingly never ending negativity